My drug of choice is St. John’s Wort. It is known to help with mild depression, and I can verify that it does. Usually an optimistic person I have recently found myself looking at life as if the cup is almost empty. Realizing that I was doing a lot of whining in my head about this and that, I gradually become aware that I was depressed. I knew it was a chemical imbalance as absolutely nothing in my life had changed since all of those days I was perfectly fine.

I rummaged through my medicine cabinet,  as I remembered having some left since the last time this happened. I read the label and preceded to take them as prescribed. Two tablets three times a day. Although my memory isn’t what it used to be, I have remembered these each and every time. Sure enough after taking them for a while life is good again. Now I have to convince myself to continue them for a reasonable amount of time to get those neurotransmitter do to their job on their own.

Internet dating has been fun this week. Is it me or is it Memorex? I spoke with someone who it turns out lived on the same street as I in a tiny little town in PA way back when. Not only that but his daughter was friends with my sons best friend from age 3- 7. Turns out this little kid, ended up with about a 4 point average in college and is now a CPA. Michael? Little Michael.

I’m also talking with a man who lives near my children in NY. Is this my chance of being able to move from Florida and live near my kids? Fantasy are so much better than reality. He is in the same profession as I. I’m a workaholic in recovery. He’s still a workaholic. I need someone who will smell the roses with me. Sorry Sam (my son, who tells me never to use clichés.)

Another internet guy, is very bright, verbalizes relationship savvy, thinks he likes me a lot even before he’s met me (oops), and may even be a possibility. I’m meeting him tonight. I’ll see.

Believe me I’d like to have one man in my life instead of all of this, but I usually enjoy the process. Hey, I’m in my 60’s, I can do whatever I want and have learned to enjoy it all, with a little help from St. John’s Wort.